In June last year our whole world changed. Our son was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. It hasn't even been a year yet and our heads are still spinning from it all. Just yesterday, the hubbs and the boy had to leave a major church youth event because his blood sugar was over 500 and we couldn't get it down. Then he bottomed out once home. Then at 4 am this morning he was low again.
Poor Cole, he had to get up twice with him, because I was worn out from working and then being at this youth event and my pregnant body is not getting the rest it needs these days. I am so tired and sick all the time. It's very tough this time around. So, since June it seems as everything has changed. Left job, left church, left school.
I've felt alone. I have felt defeated. I have felt like a failure. I have felt like a loser. I have felt like the world's worst mom and wife. I have felt I was far from God. I have felt unsupported. I have felt uncared for. I have felt exhausted. I have felt broken-hearted. I have felt stress. I have felt sadness. I have felt like it was too hard to go on. I have wished I could turn back time. I have felt angry. I have wondered if this was a cruel joke or if I was being taught a lesson.
But...
I have a hero. His name is Jesus.
Poor Cole, he had to get up twice with him, because I was worn out from working and then being at this youth event and my pregnant body is not getting the rest it needs these days. I am so tired and sick all the time. It's very tough this time around. So, since June it seems as everything has changed. Left job, left church, left school.
I've felt alone. I have felt defeated. I have felt like a failure. I have felt like a loser. I have felt like the world's worst mom and wife. I have felt I was far from God. I have felt unsupported. I have felt uncared for. I have felt exhausted. I have felt broken-hearted. I have felt stress. I have felt sadness. I have felt like it was too hard to go on. I have wished I could turn back time. I have felt angry. I have wondered if this was a cruel joke or if I was being taught a lesson.
But...
I have a hero. His name is Jesus.
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BUT- you are awesome! Cole is Awesome! And Matthew is Awesome- and can handle all of this. Someone told me right before Tatum was born that these times are when "we show our faith"- sometimes God gives us many oppurtunities to demonstrate!
We are praying for you and your family!
On another note...I have heard that the types of things your are experiencing in this pregnancy...since they are different than your first prenancy and you had a boy...I have heard that this could mean you are having a girl...so just maybe God is anwering your prayer and you will get a girl this time.
We are praying for you and love you!
Keep your eyes on your hero. He won't let us down!
Saw this verse last week, and when I read your blog, I immediately thought of you. Hang in there! God is just showing us Taylors we are strong...but he is stronger. It has been a tough year for all of us. Becky's job situation, my health, Laura, Paw Paw, and yet we all have survived and can give glory to Him for seeing us through. Our perishable containers don't fair well, but our spirits do!