4/14/09

Hero-part 2

The past few months have quite literally been the toughest for me personally thus far in my journey on this earth.

I have been a coward. I have been disobedient. I have tried to do things on my own. I have failed to listen. I have argued with God. I have whined (a lot) to God. I have had resentment over some things. I have wished things weren't this way. I have not spent time with God. I have not focused on Him. I have run at times. I have hidden at times. I have been weak. I have wanted to crawl in a hole. I have not made Him proud.

But my Hero has spoken to me (and I actually listened!). He told me that he has not moved. He will uphold me and my family with his mighty right hand. He has shared with me that he is proving me genuine. In a sense, I am getting a skin graft. The old needed to come off and it has been very painful. The new is being put on and it is not without its pain as well. But in the end, it will be worth it. It will be new and living and useful. Not like the old that was dead and dingy and not as useful as it should be. He has told me to stand. So I will.

In the name of my Hero,
Paige

3 comments:

Stonefox (otherwise known as Heidi) said...

You stand, girl! I'm with you on all of it.

I LOVE your new blog layout. It is very fresh and clean and eye grabbing. It reflects the changes going on inside you.

:) Tracie said...

You're doing a great job! You are not a coward because you are confessing things here, and that's a good start to focus on the professing of things with others. We are in the flesh and fighting that fact every day. Keep praying and keep changing!

Prayer and change is very difficult for me as well. My walk with The Lord seems so twisty most of the time and I feel almost exactly like you do! It's good to know I'm not the only one struggling, but almost sad because I don't want anyone to struggle! Without it though, there wouldn't be change or growth or a deeper relationship with The Lord!

Thank you for posting this.....it is encouraging to me, to deepen my walk as well!

Matthew and Greycie's Nana said...

I am always amazed by your honesty about your struggles. So glad you listened to your Hero! He is the only one that can give you what you need to get through all of this. You are a blessed and loved woman of God and I'm honored to be your mother.

P.S.....I LOVE the new layout!