10/1/08

Struggling



Today, I'm struggling. My son has diabetes. He would die if we didn't give him daily doses of insulin. That's heavy. Most days I am so thankful that we aren't facing a disease that has a death sentence. I am so thankful for all the strides that are being made to help those with diabetes live as normal a life as possible and also to hopefully find a cure one day.

But today I am struggling.

Last night the hubbs couldn't sleep. He, the one who is not a worrier, was worried about the boy. Yesterday the boy had a good day and there wasn't any reason to really be worried. We wouldn't have to check his blood sugar at 2 am. But my husband could not sleep and woke up at 2 and then at 3, 4, and 5 checking his blood sugar. Just to be sure.

I've spent all day praying and reading Diabetes magazines and researching everything I can get my hands on that might help my boy. Sometimes I even wonder if we've made the wrong mistake by taking him out of school this year. Am I robbing him of a normal life when so much of his life is abnormal?

Just yesterday I read an interview with Nick Jonas' mom in Diabetes Forecast. It really helped me as a mom and my thougths toward the boy's diabetes. And then I ran across this little video. It did encourage me. I can't wait to show the boy tomorrow when he wakes up!

Tomorrow is going to be a better day...

4 comments:

Stonefox (otherwise known as Heidi) said...

Paige, I am sorry that you are struggling. I cannot imagine being in your situation, especially now that Sarah is in the hospital. I am praying for you and your family and especially pray that the Lord will give you peace to accompany the endurance you will need for this illness. God bless you, sister!

She's So There said...

Oh Paige, God is so God and He will indeed see you through....isn't is hard when fear creeps in our minds again...keeping us up, keeping us afraid....call it what it is - a spiritual attack- and call it down. We are so praying for you, Cole and praising God for healing Matthew...we know he's a healing God and I am going to inhabit his praise until Matthew himself knows he's healed of this...God is so good...and btw...there is nothing not normal about choosing to educate your child at home! lol Its simply a different way to experience life within your family...its o t a y friend, no matter what way you decide to go with....but remember, you chose this to end alot of disruptions to his day and wait times too, it wasn't all rosy the other way either! You are such a gift, take time to enjoy you as well!
hugs
Sweetie

megaphonic said...

know that you and your family are a regular fixture in our prayers.

i'm amazed and impressed by what ya'll have done and been through. mostly because, though things are rough and not going according to your plan, you've chosen to walk this path with God and follow His lead. i've seen so many people pull away from God when junk got tough. i'm 100% confident that, since you choose God's path daily, you'll be amazed and awestruck by where He's gonna lead you and that awesome little red-headed boy.

courage! you're not alone.

The Kelly's said...

I am so sorry that your struggling. A mommy never quits worrying about her babies! I think you are doing a marvelous job of dealing with everything you have been dealt lately. Keep your head up and your faith! There are so many people praying!!!Love you!!